And I sat by and watched as everything that I sat by and watched slowly fell to shit.
And you asked me who I'd been before as we piled towels against the door
To not let off the smoke alarm down the hall
And I said someone you never would have met.
And you asked me why I was so scared
As we set fire to our bed. It was something I'd suggested,
What I fear most is my own head.
We talked Bonnie and Clyde and about all the extra time we'd have to set up and divide ourselves.
But I'm not gonna lie to you,
Lately I've been thinking of giving up.
Using the gifts that I've surely squandered on something less reliant on luck.
And I haven't slept properly since 2006.
But I've had some of the most glorious moments of happiness.
And I turned off my phone again and let's get lost in what is left of memories and happy times,
We'll reminisce and not regret.
And your eyes can tell me everything and I hope you know I'm lying but when reality kicks in,
You know I loved you more and more.
But I am scared of what's to come and I'm so scared of what I've done
But I know I've done nothing wrong, since the night we met.
Because you kept me alive and gave me reasons to survive,
And I'll take you away from here by any means I can.
We scattered like cigarette butts in a sea breeze.
I wish I could inhale the ocean, make my body clean.
And the drugs they work,
It's just that I don't.